Short story. A tribute to Ciko

“Open your eyes, dear”, Mummy gently whisper to my ears. Slowly I open my eyes. Bright light sting my eyes. I scream and close them back. Mummy licked my eyes again. “Now, open dear”, Mummy encourages me. As I open my eyes, my blurred vision turns clear. I saw my beautiful green eyed Mom. She smiled at me. Turned my head around, my brothers are suckling Mummy’s milk. Tummy starts to thundered, so I join the feast.

I thought I was the luckiest person on the planet. I had a home, loving master and a happy family. I was playing tagged with my brothers when my Master picked me up. I purred affectionately. “Sorry kitty, you’re a female. You can’t stay here. Later when you grow up, you’ll give me more babies. I don’t want any more,” Master told me. I was shocked. I scream for Mummy’s help. It was too late. Master put me in a box. It was dark. I heard Mummy begging Master not to separate us apart. Master shut the door. I can hear Mummy cries behind the door. Mummy..

I begged Master not to throw me. She seems deaf. She seems didn’t care my cries. Suddenly the world stops moving. The box stops moving too. What is happening? Where am I? I do not dare to look out. So I just sit quietly in the box. Waiting for my Mummy.

It has been hours. Still can’t hear any sign of Mummy’s voice. My tummy growls in hunger. With my mighty heart, I brave myself to look outside the box. It is a whole new world that I never seen before. I shout out loud. In case if Mummy’s around. I’m hungry. I walked cautiously, sniffing the trail to home. But it will always ended up back to the box where I first started. Oh, Mummy, I’m scared. Please rescue me. I’m hungry and cold. For the whole night, I stayed in the box with my hungry stomach, trembling with fear and cold, waiting patiently for Mummy. I know Mummy will rescue me. I believe you will.

I fall asleep.

“Oh, dear! Mummy is here,” I heard Mummy’s voice.
I woke up.
No one.
“Mummy?”
But there is no one still. Am I dreaming? I can’t stand the hunger so I wonder around for food.

After a long walk, oh, what’s that?
Food!
I run towards and eat it.

It tastes yucky. So much different from the chicken meat I used to eat. It has slime on it with those black tiny flies eating it too. They should be hungry too. It taste like rotten meat but as long as my tummy doesn’t growl, it’s ok for me.

This has been my food for months and I used to it now. Though it taste yucky and smells filthy, I need to survive. I need to meet my family again, my mom and my brothers. Wonder what they are doing now. I really miss you guys.

I was surprised when an ogre faced tomcat attacked me from behind. I screamed for help. He was strong. I tried to run away but he bit my neck. I was rapped.

65 days after the tragedy, I gave birth to two beautiful ones. It is hard to be young mom. I still have the urge to play and seek for adventure but I need to burn out those flames just to take care of my kids. I always advise them not to trust human. They are good kids. They listen well. We build a beautiful home inside a red flowered bush. We love to sun bath under the gigantic warming machine which human called it car.

Like other sunny morning, I brought my kids for sun bathing under the car. But I never thought that was not like other sunny days. We were sun bathing as usual when suddenly the engine was running. I quickly ran away but one of my kids ran towards the tire. I warned her but it was too late. I saw my own kid squashed by the gigantic warming machine. I was devastated. I can’t be a good Mom. But I need to protect my one last child.

We were happy playing together as a family under the big tree infront of our house. Just me and my child. But that was the last time I saw my child. She went missing while we were playing hide and seek. I searched her everywhere. But no sign. I am one lonely cat again. I continue my mundane life. I lost my family and now I lost my kids. What is left is memories and my red flowered bush home.

Months passed by. I am no more happy. I am lonely in this cruel human world. I was walking towards home. Tired after hours of scavenging for good food. I am getting skinnier. More hungry nights lately since raining season started. A bright light stung my eyes. The light blinds me.

Crack!

The gigantic warming machine squashed my hungry tummy.

I lay on the wet stony road, screaming in agony.

I can feel death is coming. My miseries are ending. Soon, I am leaving this cruel human world. Soon, I will be meeting my child again.

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This story is a tribute to Ciko, a skinny stray cat whom we’ve known for more than a year. A timid cat whom never trust human. We’ve known her since she was a little kitten, till she gets pregnant, most probably 7-8 months of age. One of her kitten died while trying to runaway when a parked car was reversing. Another kitten went missing and she was meowing the whole neighborhood searching for her lost one. Last night, she rest in peace, in a road kill. May you rest in peace.

Moral of the story.. NEUTER YOUR CATS. MALE AND FEMALE.

In Memory of Melissa

photographed by ezreen

Still remember Melissa a.k.a Kacik a.k.a Furball? If you're not sure which one, she's the one whose right eye turns tinted purple, then became cloudy, and she gets blind. Those who came to Bubu's Shelter for boarding or adopt may remember her as the one who will walk to your leg, roll her body around, searching for your attention. Though she start to loss her ability to walk, she will still force herself to your leg; walking slowly just to get a stroke of love.

Yes, that's Melissa. When she was 2.5 months old, I found her under a car nearby my home. She was scared. It was a few days after we brought back The Cheras kittens. When I met her with The Cheras kittens, she was totally over excited. She mix along with The Cheras well and became their big sister. She grooms everyone. She never hissed to any new comers. She's the only kitten who has so many name. Furball because she loves to ball out herself. Kacik because she doesn't grow big but instead, grow longer. Her body like being stretched.

Months passed by, all The Cheras kittens were adopted. She remains here with me. Whenever she sees me, she'll come forward, begging for hugs and kisses. As her eyes worsen, she gets skinnier, her fur fall outs til her tummy is bold. She can't walk normally, sometimes she crawls. We sent her to vet for operation . After the operation, she starts getting better. Her fur grows, and she has big appetite. Not until one day, she lay down for one whole day on the cat bed. I found out that she can't walk anymore so I caged her so she can easily eat the food without walking. Everyday I need to clean the cage's tray because she cant climb the litter box to pee or poo. So all her poo and pee drains down to the tray. Everyday I massage her leg. I learn it during Kristy the twisted legged kitty case. Thank God, she was able to walk again, though very slow and unstable. After a few steps, she'll fall. But she was so determent to be normal again.I was happy to see her milking Bender and his siblings. They even sleep together.

A few week past, Melissa lost the ability to walk again. So I caged her and do the same routine over and over again. Her left eye starts to develop tears stain. So many of them till it harden and covers her eyes within 1-2 days. I cleaned her, and stroke her head and body. I know she loves it. Though she's sick, she's trying her best to survive. She purrs..

On 8th September 2009, I arrived home from work, seeing Melissa laying down. Lifeless. She's gone to heaven. I never thought that yesterday was the last day I hear her purring. I never knew, yesterday was the last day she hears me saying, "I love you, Kacik." I know deep in her soul, she is relieved, all her pain is set free. Happy in heaven with everyone else. I bet she's playing with Ammar and the rest of the cats, in heaven..

Awhile gone too long

Same old lame excuse - "I've been busy for the past July."

3 weeks ago, Kimky passed away. I went out to the pet shop for their food, and the next thing I know Weena is sulking Kimky's dead body. Poor Weena. We burried Kimky under this big tree. Then we made B.G and Weena playmate. Weena looks happy having new friends. But I noticed that sometimes Weena will sit outside, looking at the trees. Deep thinking. Missing Kimky I guess. She eats well, plays well. I fall asleep one day, when I woke up, I found out Weena is missing. Search her high and low.. and found her on the ground. Breathless. Weena is dead. Joining her lil sister, Kimky. Now they are unite, boogy in heaven.

Meanwhile Melissa, she went for eye surgery last week. Her right eye is bulging so scared it might pop out, we sent her to vet. Asked vet about her slim long body, her bold problem (yeah, Melissa had this no fur at her tummy, and it is starting to eat the fur at her back.) Previous vet (Vet KC)which I went for testing (I love to test vets see if they are reliable, informative or not) told me that it is due to Minge. I searched and if it is Minge, it should started from the tips of the ear. Not body. Her fur just falls out and never grows back. No fleas and mites. Regarding Melissa's eye, Vet KC told me that just put eye drops and if it doesn't harm her, just leave it.

When I decided to send to Vet Shah Alam (shelter's vet), they told me that Melissa had glaucoma and no use of putting eye drops to it because it won't make it better anyway. About her bold problem, vet told me that it is due to hormon inbalance. The boldness is symmetrical and safest way to treat hormon inbalance is by NEUTERING. I still can give drugs but it is not advisable because it can damage Melissa's kidney. So there you go, another reason why we need to neuter our beloved pets. Melissa need to be stablized with nervous medication before the surgery since she had seizure a day before.
The day I picked her up, vet told me she eats alot. Nice food I guess. After she is fully recover, she'll be neutered. Will post her pic soon.

Some info I would wanna share :

Vet told me that glaucoma can happen to any cats. It is the inbalance pressure in the eye ball. Unlucky cats can get it. Human can get it too. Anyone with eyes can get it. It is not some infection or what.

For now, only 4 out of 7 reliable and good vets in my list for now.

Exotic Animals:

hand "N" paws
C-17G, jalan PJU 1/45,
Aman Suria Damansara,
47301 PJ
Phone: 03-78046539

Notes: I brought June the blind sugar glider here. Very informative, good, and friendly vet.

Other animals:

Heshmael Clinic For Pets Sdn Bhd
21-1, Dataran Sunway,
Jln Pju 5/13, Kota Damansara,
47000 Petaling Jaya, Selangor
Phone: 03-6156 2478

Notes: They do import/export pets service. So if you wanna travel with your pets, give them a call. Its pricey but they are the best! Very good, informative vet. I ask anything, they answer. Expensive but worthit. Tipak's (cat who boards with me for 6 month before meeting his Mama in U.K) vet.

BABY PETS SURGERY AND VETERINARY CLINIC
No. 7-G, Jalan Equine 9D,
Taman Equine,
Bandar Putra Permai,
43300 Seri Kembangan
Phone: 03-89480040

Notes: Another good vet nearby. Sent lots of my cats there since it is nearer to Cyberjaya. They help strays too. Kind and loving people. They give very reasonable price too

SHAH ALAM VET CLINIC
63, JALAN SNUKER 13/28,
TADISMA BUSINESS CENTRE, SEKSYEN 13, SHAH ALAM 40000 SELANGOR
Tel No: 03-55116182
Fax No: 03-55116182

Notes: I've been sending all the cats here since 2007. All surgery I do it here. Reasonable price. So far they answer all my questions & doubts. Even teaches me how to handle sick cats, etc.

good bye Ammar

Last week, Ammar was having fever, but it last one day only, so I thought, it's ok. A week later, his eyes was so like puss in the boot's eye. I said, "Eee.. Ammar you make that puss in the boots face, so cute of you". He sleeps all the time, don't play, but he lets Melissa to rub her cheek and body towards him. They are like the shark and the small fish which will stick on shark's body for cleaning - Yes! Ammar and Melissa totally like that!.

2 days later, I realize he's getting skinny, lost appetite, and sleeps 24 7. I was petting him, when i saw his ears, paws, gum turns yellowish. Oh no! Jaundice! The next morning I brought him to vet. Vet gave liver tonic and Jaundice medicine. Ammar pupil is big, and that means the toxic has reached to it's brain. His kidney swollen up too. Vet advice me to give wet food and bring him back a.s.a.p if he totally don't eat or drink.

Back home, I fed Ammar his meds, and I crossed my fingers, hoping he'll eat the wet food and hurray! he eats without force feeding. There's hope! There's hope! He'll survive. The next day, Ammar start to pee dark yellowish, and he drinks, but don't touch his food at all. I need to force feed him. This is not good! The another day he don't drink nor eat! All the food I feed, he'll throw it out again. So I bring him to the vet for drip. He is so weak, he can't even walk.

Ammar was admitted. I kissed him before I go back. Vet told me, in this stage, it's 50-50 because he's not responding to the meds that they gave.

The next morning, I was in class. I realize I had a misscall from the vet when I reached home. I called back and the receptionist told me that the doctor has patient and he'll call me back. At 4pm, vet called me. She said that Ammar can't be saved. He was not responding to the drip, the oxygen, and the meds. When vet called in the morning was to inform me that Ammar is dying and wanna let me see him for the last time. But it's too late now. He died. I picked him up at night after evening class. He was wrapped respectfully - with white canvas and plastic bag. Brought him home for burial. Everyone was sad. Melissa isolate herself in a corner, Panjang be with Ammar through the whole burial process, the kids were there too - looking at Ammar being buried.

I'll be missing your licks. You even lick me before we go to vet, as if you know you are not going to see me again. I never knew you'll go away this young. May you rest in peace. Good bye Ammar..

Sayonara

I just came back from class, and my housemate told me that Louise just died. For this whole 1 week, I have been force feeding her. Vet told me that she's having ulcer and Herpes. May you rest in peace Louise.. We will all be missing u.
Meanwhile, Lisa died. She was playful yesterday, and this morning around 1a.m she died. Then I checked on Lara and Lea, they are sick. High fever. Bringing them to vet. Last checkup, they were healthy, playful, all the sudden, after Lisa's death, they're sick. Keep on vomiting and diarrhea. Did some homework and they might having bowel irritation. Hope they are ok, and I'm holding them back until they are healthy, then i'll release back for adoption.

Farewell Ari

Dear Ari,
may you rest in peace. We've tried our best to make you survive, we know you are strong but God loves you more, what can we do now is to pray that you are happy playing with your siblings and friends at cat's heaven. We will all miss you very much..

What's up?

Kristy

Adek with her kittens (from left: Adek Jr., Tupai Jr., Piper Jr., Tupai Jr the 2nd)

Last 3 weeks, i received a call from my housemate asking about if a cat has been hit by a car, will it survive? I answered, depends on which area it been hit. If tail, it may not survive, but if leg, it may survive. Then she told me that she and her friends found a kitten, DLH at the petronas gas station, with both of her back leg broken. They took her home. After lunch, we brought her to vet. Vet told us that she can't treat her because she dont know what's wrong with her and we need to xtray her first. since the vet dont have that facility, we need to bring the kitten to UPM's vet and since it is saturday, the UPM vet is closed, so we need to wait til monday. That night, we name her Kristy. On Sunday, i brought her to Shah Alam Vet since they have the xtray and it is cheaper than UPM's. I told the vet that I need to do quotation for Kristy's treatment coz we are collecting fund for her, so vet inform me that the xtray cost RM120 for 2views. She asked me whether I want to do it now, i told her i cant. then she said that, maybe she can help something,so she asked the senior vet to look at Kristy. He told me that Kristy might have nerve problem because after from the first time she can't move both of her leg, now one of her leg is shivering and she do feel the pain, unlike broken leg, they can't feel anything if her leg been pinched. So vet thought me how to do leg massage for Kristy, and gave Kristy nerve pill and pain killer last for 16days. Vet told me to come back if she didnt respond to the meds. So atleast I have 16days to collect RM120 for Kristy.She charged me RM20 for all the pills. im quite surprised. Unfortunately, 3days later, Kristy died.

After the death of Kristy, the next day, Piper died. I have no idea why. She has no flu or anything, in the morning before i go to campus, she was playing with paperball, and after I came back, i saw her laying on the floor helplessly. I feed her and clean her pee, and vet is close coz it's night, and a few hours later, Piper died. Then 2 hours later, Piper Jr. (Adek's kitten) died. The next day, Tupai Jr. (Adek's kitten) died. The following day, Tupai Jr. the 2nd (Adek's kitten) died. Then follow by Piper Jr. the 2nd (Rashidah's kitten) and Adek Jr. (Adek's kitten) died. I have no idea why. All of them been active, suddently have flu, then afew hours later they die except for Piper who is healthy for all this while. Now everyone have flu. Adek, Mama, Senget, Emma. Meanwhile Louise just recover from flu. Rest are ok. Now, all sick one been quarantine. Now is raining season, everyone can get sick easily..

Teman me please..

"O.J,O.J, at last you come to teman me. I'm so lonely here, but since you already here, lets play!" says late Amir. O.J died in my arms about 4.34pm just now. She was eating n drinking much, i think she like the chicken soup and the raw chicken, but she pee alot. Its ok for me. I told her, if u survive O.J, i'm gonna keep u, O.J. She mewed, but minus the voice. I know all she want is the milk. Mama's real milk, but Mama too bias dont wanna feed her, only feed her siblings. She mewed hungry, follow everywhere Mama goes, but when Mama lay down, and O.J wanna start drinking, Mama will get away, worst, kick her. I saw it, and i am mad with Mama, til today. I know O.J is weak, but i never wanna giveup on her. I know she is in pain, and i believe she will survive the pain,and live happily after her eye pop out, but, i was wrong. I saw her tears, feel her pain, sometimes i feel wanna put her to sleep, so that she wouldn't suffer, but the other half of me dont wanna give up hope on her. I clean her everytime she pee, dry her, feed her,calm her down when she's in real great pain. Her last moment, i know she's in real great pain,she mew without her voice for several time, i give her chicken soup, she drink alot,maybe to ease her pain, then she trembled,i try to calm her down,then her mew,her last mew,her last breath,in my arms.

O.J, O.J.....i feel like she's still breathing. I ask my housemate to check on her, 15minutes later, i try to carry her, she's heavy n started to harden, then i really believe, she is dead. I try to act strong by not crying, coz i know, this is the nature, all living things will die, but i can't help it.Tears rolling down my cheek, im crying.. O.J, dont worry, all the trouble u've cost, i dont really care. It is a precious experience for me.

O.J, u really teach me how to be patience n now i know how it feels when a mother takes care of sick child. I appreciate it. O.J, i hope u are happy playing at heaven. Send my love to Tompok, Tompok Jr., Adek's kittens, and Amir.. i miss all of you. May you rest in peace.

Call from Heaven

Its Amir's meds time. When i look at him,he's laying still. Not moving. Amir..Amir is dead. I know his chance is 50-50 as doc said,it might be fatal if his organ is infected too and he's too skinny. Amir rest in peace at my garden.. Hope he meet late Tompok and late adik's kittens in heaven..

Late Amir(left) with his twin sis, Amira

Moment of silence

I just went back from class and play game when i heard a loud mew. i thought Adik brought back her baby, so i go find her. But no sign of Adik. Then the meow stop. A few minutes later, i heard the meow again. This time its from infront of my house. So I went out and try to find the source of the sound. There, i saw,nearby the garbage(afew steps from my house), in a shoe box, lay 2 baby kitten. Baru dilahirkan i think. But one of them is dead. So i bring them inside and start to bury the dead one. Then it started to rain... The baby was mewing hungry i guess and i think it is a she.So i fed her kitten milk using syringe. She sleep soundly after that. An hour later, she begs for more. After full, she went back to sleep again. I check her from time to time just to make sure she's ok. I was planning to find ibu susuan for her. One of my friends said that i need to put like hot water bag covered with cloth to make her warm so i borrowed my housemate's. I know she really is struggling to survive.
My bestfriend called to check on her mother because she was alone and not feeling well and she cant get tru her, event her dad n her bro. So i went down to ampang to check on her mom. Well, she's ok though. On my way back, my housemate sms me. She said the baby is not moving...Oh my god.......she's dead.That person who dump them is so cruel...Hope she rest in peace.